I first posted this 6 days ago. I just discovered it had been removed without telling me. I don’t think this is right or honest, whether it is normal procedure for Premier or not. I’m posting it again, I expect it might be removed again, if it is allowed to appear at all. I have since found out that my old sixth form college, after I left, had a principal called Gordon Brown. Also there I had a music teacher called Andrew Burnham, who is now a bishop, and Gordon Brown’s 2 sons are called John and Fraser, 2 of the main leaders at St Barnabas Church, Woodside Park. Also, at College I had a teacher whose last name was Offord, and there is an MP of that name, and there is a Barry Shearman in Parliament (see David Shearman of Christian Centre, Nottingham, my church during my teens. There are more, but I haven’t yet had time to go through all the Thursday night coverage of the election to put names and faces together. I think it is available until this Thursday evening, and if anyone wants to download it, you should find that, from the point of downloading, you have 28 days to watch it, so the later the better, for time.
I found out about Gordon Brown the college principal by doing a search on Martyn Offord at Bilborough College Nottingham. That was at 10.30 am on Saturday morning. I think it was straight after that that BBC1, at least, started holding extraordinary news meetings. I say ‘I think’, because I don’t know if they were doing it before. Please check them out on the BBC iPlayer. And that grey t-shirt David Cameron was wearing, and even the way he was walking, was me. Believe me, I know. They were talking about a crisis in the constitution. If it isn’t, it should be. Hopefully it will be. This is the real reason that Gordon Brown has stepped down. Again, believe me, I know. I wouldn’t say so if I didn’t. Jesus is Lord and this is wrong. They have taken me and mine hostage, slapped a diagnosis of mental illness on me, are hitting me with every embarrassment and character assassination in the book, and are making me feel guilty for accepting the benefits. This is serious, not cute and sweet and loving and cosy, because there is no way that I am the only person this is happening to. I might start a blog on WordPress. Hopefully this kind of censorship wouldn’t happen on there, but I don’t know. Maybe you are required to speak in code and metaphors everywhere, even if, like me, really you are a victim and should be entitled to stir it openly. Apologies for the difference in the colour of the typeface. I’m not sure how this has happened or how to correct it.
These are significant dates in my life which have been used consistently over the last few years, to my awareness and much of it recorded on hard drives, (unless my flat has been burgled. How’s that for an invitation?), by the church and the media, including Premier, for arranging events.
This month, as Kensington Temple leaders themselves observed on Sunday, is particularly rich. They got hold of this because I sent an email to the Christian People’s Alliance on Sunday morning. At least, after years of this, I have believed that that is how they got hold of it. I might be wrong. It might be a constant stream of words of knowledge. I am now ready to believe that. If anyone more qualified believes that would be wrong of me, please help me, or at least communicate your belief.
1st Grandfather’s birthday (Frank)
8th Grandmother’s birthday (Ethel, known as Dorothy. She has been referred to as Edna, but the context makes it obvious)
12th Uncle (Frank’s) birthday, also birthday of Diane Bombroffe, a lady I knew at the Christian Centre, Talbot Street, Nottingham, senior minister David Shearman. All 3 of these are regularly portrayed in the media. Notice how often people get onto something and say ‘frankly’. Watch the whole communication. Last Wednesday on BBC1, on The One Show, Ronnie Corbett was on. They showed footage of a sketch he did years ago, him and 2 other men, can’t remember who they were. They were lined up tallest to shortest. Ronnie Corbett was my uncle, perfect representation – stammering, bearing (notice how often and how strategically the politicians put together these things, and their ‘frankly’s. Ronnie Corbett said, as if it was my uncle, ‘I know my place’. My father had contact with people in show business, though I’m not sure to what extent. He dictated a begging letter to me once to send to either Anne Shelton or Tessie O’Shea, I can’t remember which. They are both dead now. Vera Lynn was on the news last night, with a reference to Anne Shelton.
Also, on last week’s Friday Night with Jonathan Ross, Jonathan was doing my uncle. Flat cap, expression, bearing, stammering, frankly-ing it. I’m saying all this in the hope that some of my readers will care enough to notice when it happens, and understand.
22nd A double anniversary date, my father’s death by overdose of sleeping tablets in 1972, and the date of the splitting of Tottenham Community Church in 1988. I used to go to that church. Until recently it never occurred to me that the fact it was the same date could be anything but coincidence. Obviously, I don’t know. But in light of everything else it would make sense. On that date, at the time of my final exams for my degree, I turned up at the house I had been told the meeting was at, having got up late and not having been told before, only to be met at the door by Loxley Ford and told he didn’t believe I was committed, or something along those lines, and I wasn’t welcome (I had been there, regularly, for about 6 years). I collapsed in tears. They later held a communion service which was by invitation and the function of which seemed, to me, to be about affirming covenant relationship between the leader, Alan Woodroffe, and those who were invited. I wasn’t one of them. I believe it was a closed service. Certainly, as I remember it, it was by invitation.
26th Anniversary of my grandmother’s death in 1976. David Shearman officiated at the funeral service, at my request. Because of the teaching I received at the church (which I am not saying was good or bad, I still prefer burial over cremation) I persuaded my family to have her buried. But my brother told me what we didn’t realise at the time, that she had been buried in a pauper’s grave (do they still call it that) and there were 3 other people on top of her.
1st Mother’s Birthday (Doreen)
10th Brother’s birthday (Steven) I happened to be watching the television one night and there was a documentary on about a murder enquiry in Nottingham, where my family lived. So I watched, and next I saw my brother with two other men, and they did a reconstruction of him walking a couple of girls back to their respective homes after an evening out somewhere. He wishes he hadn’t got involved with the media situation, he was angry that they had been given his address. I don’t know if he was made to feel obliged to participate or not. He had felt at the time of the investigation that the police were trying to blame him.
OCTOBER 15th (I think) Father’s birthday (Keith, called himself Ken)
NOVEMBER 24th My birthday Last Friday, BBC One showed a film which was first shown on 24th November, about a mother who had to rescue her daughter from a cult obsessed with cars and bloodletting. It is listed on the BBC 1 schedule on the iPlayer. It is also unavailable for watching or download. I don’t know how that decision was made, I haven’t used the iPlayer much in the past. But the connection and its deliberateness seem obvious to me. I have reported things like this to Ofcom before, giving the best account I can as someone who is qualified to understand, and they won’t accept it as stalking. Even though references in look-alikes and namesakes to my family, neighbours and situations were obvious. The last I knew, Gerald Coates was on the board of Ofcom, and as far as I know, he might even be blessing this, let alone be aware of it.
DECEMBER 14th Tommy Boyd’s birthday
25th My sister’s 1st and 3rd children’s birthdays, Louise and Gary
31st My teacher, Rusty’s, birthday (Nick Ferrari’s as well. Not really personal, like Tommy Boyd is also not really personal, but they have both been involved with this and used, at least, by Winning in Life, Robb Thompson. So it’s worth being aware of).
FEBRUARY 18th birthday of my youngest sibling, Jason, who died after 22 hours back in 67/68. Apologies for the imprecision, my family, with all this stuff going on, didn’t manage to keep these memories active. My mother had a really hard time over this period up to 1976 in terms of family deaths. First Jason, then her grandmother a year or 2 later, then my father, her husband, 2 years later, then her mother, 4 years later. If anyone cares, my mother needs help.
8th My great-grandmother’s birthday
9th My sister Lorraine’s birthday
26th Anniversary of my first admission to a mental hospital in 1996
Significant names: Loretta, Linda, John And Anne (Finchley St Barnabas Church). Michael Ball I saw recently on Jonathan Ross’s show doing a complete impression of my Scottish English lecturer. I didn’t know until then. Michael is a significant name. He is a New Age musician that I was corresponding with for a year. The church and Premier like to suggest that he is now a Christian and in agreement with them. The headshaking that has recently flooded the television when people are speaking? – that is from one of his videos, which they only know about because they got it from my computer, I think.
Darren, Emma, Brenda, Anne, Tim, Josh, all immediate neighbours or involved with in the area. Darren, Emma and Brenda are used a lot, both names and lookalikes. Someone played a really raucous Brenda Lee song on the radio once – that’s how Brenda sounds, and she directs it at me sometimes. Anne’s house is 55, my birthday is 1960, the last part of Play Radio’s phone number was 556060 for a while. My house is 53, Brenda’s is 51, One of Premier’s numbers has 5252 as part of it. Knowing how much else is deliberate, there is no way that isn’t.
LBC’s frequency is 97.3. I was given a telephone number which ended 9073 shortly afterwards. They have a Darren and a Barnett and a Christo (Christ, or Chrysta at Winning in Life). This cannot be innocent coincidence. It isn’t. I just don’t know what to do about it. I knew someone called Jason Lee Mitchell, and immediately Jason Lee Collins appeared.
A few years ago my local House of God of Prophecy came to my door with a leaflet for a showing of ‘Passion of the Christ’. I told them I had seen it and wasn’t interested, because I just saw a man acting, not Jesus, and I didn’t really see the film as being the best thing that had happened to evangelism. We had a friendly enough conversation, I thought, but I told them I didn’t want the leaflet, but the slipped it into my hand, surreptitiously, below the threshhold of my resistance, or so I felt. I was really upset by that, because I thought they should have had enough respect to take no for an answer. Apparently my sister was given a hard time at Talbot Street for not being able to do just that. Anyway, I later saw the date. It was the date of my mother’s birthday, and I felt confused and guilty. It took a long time for me to realise that this had been a deliberate pairing, and I have seen many more of them since. Premier and Kensington Temple have a few going right now. The thing is, it is without my consent and totally against my wishes, and they have known this for years. In effect it is an act of molestation. One of Kensington Temple’s preachers on Sunday said something about holding a rope for someone until they came through. But I told them years ago that, while they continue to stalk me and enforce and support their mental health theories/hiding places as they do, I don’t want any part of their church. I don’t believe in the mental health theories and practices they promote, and having gone through what I have with them, there is no way I could sit in one of their services while they have it in their arsenal. Because they have certain things they hit people with, and that is one of them. And it’s not OK, towards me or towards anyone else.
So taking over the elements of my life like this, while I am so desperate I am grateful, I know it is not OK. This is what they have done with pagan festivals, taking the dates and using them for Christian festivals. It’s an act of spiritual force. I have read about the flipside of it and been told it is something occultists do. They take something specific to another person and use it as a point of access. I have been told it is witchcraft and can make people sick. I know what I have experienced, and I believe that is true. Often I have had local Christians pass by my door on a significant date in my life, when I felt happy. But they didn’t see me. Possibly they weren’t even thinking about me, if they were not using that date knowing it was significant for me. But it’s as if they were holding on to those dates in the belief that they were praying for me and ‘holding a rope’ for me (perhaps I am being too charitable), but the rope was a noose, and continues to be. It leaves me mentally and spiritually vulnerable to all kinds of attack. And while they have been doing this they yell and scream and mix and match my material so it is baarely recognisable, but I have ‘aha!’ moments. It’s shock and awe tactics. And they seem to know all about my life here with my neighbours, and my landlord, who is a church person. When I reveal in a note to someone that I am being mistreated, they react with surprise, because they have been told a different story, and believed the other person, and this is what they have always done, believed the worst that they heard about me until it was contradicted. They haven’t changed, for all their overtures. They are talking about setting boundaries for me and looking embarrassed now they realise they haven’t got the whole story and that they are supporting people who are trying to get from me at knifepoint money for a bill which isn’t mine. But it has ever been thus. But it always takes me by surprise to realise what is going on. They also told me there were garden tools, but there aren’t, and everyone shouts outside my house and the old women look at my garden with undisguised disapproval, and I crumble inside. I don’t speak their language.
They’re mixing the dates around now. separating months and days sometimes, but they are still there. But while they are doing this, it’s as if I don’t exist, even while I hear them talking about me and appropriating everything about me.
The song by Portland, which John Pantry plays on his show, or used to – Carry You. that’s a reference to Michael, who lives in Oregon. It’s a constant patchwork quilt, incorporating everything I do which is new to me, very quickly after I do it. I had a website, an online store, called Lifestyle, and suddenly it became a major word on Premier. Everything I do they make a feature of. Green is one of those themes, and probably part of their coding. In fact, a couple of days ago, I recognised a new use I thought they had for it.
There are 2 things they are holding me to ransom with. One I can’t talk about, because if I do it non-specifically, everyone involved will be worried, and if I do it specifically, it will identify the people. And then they will add to it accusations of irresponsibility.
The other was that I urinated on the steps at St Barnabas. St Barnabas never talked to me about this, but very quickly everyone knew, and they have been using it ever since. The only reference to it that St Barnabas made to me was purely on a psychological level, when John Coles told me he wanted to talk to me, ordered me really, and sat down on the row in ront of me physically confronting me, with two other leaders either side of e, and pointed to the corner of the church where it happened and said sternly that in future he wanted me to sit right there at the back. I think I was in hospital at the time, and afterwards I kept deciding not to go to church because I didn’t think I could handle it. It was after my first hospital admission, and accusations I didn’t know about were flying around about me, but I felt at the time I was being accused of witchcraft by Colin Dye’s church, Kensington Temple. For various reasons I felt unable to talk about it, but I spoke to someone at St Barnabas about it a few years ago. Henry Kendal, the new vicar. He stepped to one side and moved away from me. I also spoke on the phone to a policeman and told him what I had done and that I felt guilty, and he said to forget it, and because I was sleeping rough that night and he thought I was vulnerable he said I should phone social services and they would be able to find me somewhere to sleep, but I did and they said they couldn’t. That was in Chichester. I also told one of the nurses at the hospital, but I don’t know what she did with the information, if anything. So that is one of the things they are using, and as far as I know they haven’t reported it as a crime or anything, and it seems to me that they should have done. I have been given no explicit or formal opportunity to answer this accusation and have it dealt with appropriately, but I have been taken by force with no reference to it. I also told one of my nurses, at least, a woman called Angie Perry, who also has a lookalike in Parliament, that if I were to commit a crime or hurt anyone, I wanted a proper trial and to go to prison, and not to be treated as mentally ill. I told her I believed in personal responsibility and that was what I wanted. She made no mention of any accusations at the time, if she knew about them, and to my memory she hasn’t since either. But she has often been contemptuous, or at least inappropriate, towards me since. The other is the thing I wrote about in my first post, that I went to the police about twice. Premier knows this, as do the other churches. I’m not sure how, because I didn’t tell them. I told 3 other people, by email. I have since told a couple who were responsible for the house I was in when I first came here to Bulgaria. But the church knows, and I know they know, Gordon Brown in the debate last Thursday kept using the speech patterns of the people involved. I’m not going to say who I’ve told, because I don’t want it to be used as an opportunity for more fabrication. But I know they know.
They make clear that thye know this stuff, and on the basis of what they have gained from stalking me, they make out to me that it is still my resposnbility to try and take this further and that I have failed in not doing so. But they are not supporting me in that. The fact that I agree with them is neither here nor there, in this situation. The whole thing has taken on an air of complete unreality and psychological impossibility.
Mon, 3 May 2010 13:54
Premier post ‘why do some people insisit on kjv’?
John, have you thought that not all new believers are uneducated in the language of the King James Version? You could equally ask, why impose mixed up, dumbed down modernity on people who don’t want it.
There are many languages of today, determined by all kinds of factors. There is not only one, and they are of equal value. Some people find the King James language more helpful and appropriate to who THEY are and how THEY want to express and educate themselves in Christianity, even life itself. For one thing, it helps them stay connected with previous generations. And every new version, if accuracy is its purpose, claims to be more accurate than what has gone before. That doesn’t validate the claim. Maybe it just means it fits more easily with what you want to embrace, if you decide it is more accurate. The past is a foreign country, we don’t really have access to it, in terms of living there. We don’t have full access to our OWN time.
By the way, both wicked and naughty are to be found in the King james version, and mean approximately the same thing. Today people say ‘wicked’ meaning it for ‘good’, and that, I believe, at a psycholinguistic level, is dangerous, and might explain a lot of the confusion in society, which sometimes we mistake for corruption, believing that is what it is. The Bible says, in whatever translation you choose, that it is bad to call evil good.
This started out as a reaction to believing that you are stalking me, and that is how you managed to start this discussion while I was in the middle of starting my own, which starts with a KJV quotation. This isn’t an accusation, but I know I’m being stalked (see my blog). The KJV is the way I learned the Bible, and I have come back to it after the NIV, Good News and Living. It is more consistent with who I am and want to be. I love the language. I wanted to go back to the roots of my own understanding. Shakespeare is the same language of the same time. I love that too. I was brought up in Church, there was never a time that I didn’t believe, that I can remember. Apart from anything else, the KJV IS a link with history, and I think that is valuable. I am glad that it is the way that I first learned to read the Bible as a child and that it issomething I have been able to come back to, and it has greater worth for its part in my history.
Cross cultural communication is about 2 way learning, ideally. I have used both old and modern translations. I prefer the old, you prefer the modern, there are many people in each category, but more valuable, I believe, is to be familiar with and have an appreciation of both, if communication is your purpose, in order to establish a good bond with the person and not dismiss them in conversation because they value older or newer.
Not sure if this or anything else I write will be answered, last time I looked nothing else had been. I’m wondering if people have been told not to get involved with me. That’s what used to happen at Church. or maybe some of you are agent provocateurs, Christian or otherwise, and lure people to communicate then, when they do, act as if they don’t exist. Please check out my other posts and my blog. It would be nice to have some feedback.